Salam Ramadhan

Salam,

It's been so long I did not update my blog ...is either i'm too busy or i'm too pissed with my life..year of 2010 ...urghh..there is so many thing happened and its really touched me and really effect the way i see the true meaning of life...especially friendship...

I lost few good friends where i put them deep in my heart...but time will change anything...so do relation...either it grow larger or just dead...depend on how you taking care of them...in my case ..may be it is me...i'm expecting too much ...i think...yes, it is true that people that u love is the person who hurt u soo much..life wasn't easy for me nowadays..i've been thru every level of hell...

Honestly, i miss them so damn much and nothing much i can do to fix it...phone them wouldn't do anything as it cannot release my pain...so i just wait ...waiting for nothing as it won't be happening at all.."0"...

Time flies ...it's been quite long ...but i manage to be stagnant and static at where i've been left...i'm ok with it...but when it come to this"Mubarakh" month ...all the memories knocked my heart hard...tears dropped without warning...everthing become so pale and slow...i'm laughing but my heart is crying...when i looked back ..i don't have much friend left...i got friend but there a just a friend ...when i stand up on the reality..yes i'm still alive and alone...where is everybody that i called sister..owh..i'm just dreaming ...i am nobody to them...i am just one of the character in their script of life..once chapter done ..i'll be forgotten..

i wanted to run away from all this ...find new places to open new chapter ...but it won't help as I cannot erase memories...it will always there...good and bad memories...i love to remember it and it make me thinking that i had a good people around me before and i know i will be a good friend to others .....

I hate to know that Syawal will be here soon...I want to enjoys this Ramadhan as it is full of good memories with it....

i'll always be here for good and bad....this is me..

Syukur kehadrat Allah......give me strength to face YOUR new day...AMIN....

Dedicate this to "Lumpur Gelap"

She cries all the time...we cannot see with our naked eyes but yes...she is crying inside....

Even when there is no tears, her eyes have the haunted hollowness of someone who is sobbing inside..

I want to help her but she won't let me near....She stop sharing her happiness...sadness....and sorrow with me...who am I to her???? nothing...I'm just like a thousand dust in the air...nothing..plain ...not even existed in her life.....

This is for you "Lumpur Gelap" taken from some song lyrics which I found it so beautiful...

"Memories, supposed to
fade,

What's wrong with my
heart,

Shake it off, let it
go,

Didn't think it'd be this
hard

Should be strong, moving
on

But I see you

Sometimes I try to
hide,

What I feel inside

And I turn around

You're with her now

I just can't figure it
out

Tell me why its so hard to
forget

Don't remind me, I'm not over
it,

Tell me why I can't seem to face the
truth,

I'm just a little too not over
you"

Life have to go on......

Gubahan Bunga sempena Hari Raya

Hantaran Bunga Segar

This is my first attempt decorating with fresh flower...erm x kemas sgt...dan x puas hati gak la..
















Chocolate cake




















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Cupcakes for the acara suap suap




















Buah - buahan




















Bunga Rampai




















Sirih Junjung















Toiletries

Jam Tangan

Kek Hantaran

Just update for viewing..one of my new friend ordered...x suke buat dan makan kek fondant icing nii...remeh...camne org bole makan benda benda manis mcm nii...ish ish...bole join kelab diabetik nii...

Wedding Cake for Cik Saba

This is special request from Auntie Saba...I'm not good at this type of cakes actually, but she insisted me to do it still. Thanks to friend Shaz who is so helpful by lending me her cake tiers although I asked quite last minute....Thanks Sis...

Her theme colour is cream, orange and yellow...this is what happened ...at the end...quite proud with myself...(perasan)

Hantaran Pertunangan Elwa